I have decided to record our story. We both came together so far. It's more than one year. I could never imagine that. Being an insecure person, i never really trust a long term relationship but still i try because i want it so much.
You always asked me am i still love you. Yes, i do. I really love you more than what you can imagine. But the insecurity that hides in my heart still there, i scare i will lost myself like before when i'm so in love you and you're gone one day. I went through the process. Now i felt like i want you so much that makes me so scare. I never told you and you will never know. I know you love me so much and you have changed a lots for me. You said you never hurt me. But i guess i need time. Just wanna to tell you at this moment you really means a lots to me. I want you to know how much I cherish you.
Both of us are so different, we don't have the same personality but i always makes myself believe that love is not finding the right person but together build a right relationship with our love. We have been separated from each other for more than one year. Our love story is so different yet so beautiful. Long distance relationship. No one can imagine how we do that. Our love become more and more strong even we don't see each other, we don't have close contact, we don't kiss each other, for more than one year. I really appreciate that you are always there listen to me and accompany me with the phone. Phone have become so important to both of us since i broke my laptop. I'm here in US all by myself if it's not you there listen to me, i would never came that far. You never know how was my feeling here fighting for my future all by myself. I'm glad i still doing great.
My baby, everyday i miss you so much everyday i just wanna talk to you. I know I'm tough girl but still how i wish i'm not that tough and lean on you all the time like how other girls do all the time when they are tired and in problem. I still wish i can hug you right now at this moment. I wish you were here with me as well. :) I can stand up by myself but i'm lost without you. Now is the period of time that is our challenge.Long distance relationships require a special willingness and understanding that can test love like no other type of relationship can. It requires constant communication and a desire to continually create your relationship, using only words. No matter what happens, we are always try so hard to works a way. We never want to end the love between us. The closer I am to you, the happier I am. But there is more fear inside me. I start to scare i will lost you one day.
My arms missed holding you. My eyes missed your smile. My ears missed the sound of your laugh. I missed the smell of your hair and the taste of your lips. I missed snuggling close to you. I missed looking at you when we are eating. I missed brushing back your hair, exposing your neck to loving and tender kisses. I missed staring into your beautiful small little eyes. I missed being held by you. I missed being near you. I missed you.
"And ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation." --Kahlil Gibran
Love,
Mei Lee
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