爱

我很喜欢你。很喜欢很喜欢。很爱你。很爱很爱。

也许是家庭环境的关系。总是渴望爱与疼。
一个人在这。我更需要你了。

我想要得到你的疼爱。

好久

我已经好久没理这个小小空间。
自从我们之间一次又一次的吵闹，一次又一次的争论，一次又一次的哭泣。。。
我从来没有想过会是这样子的。离开彼此有一年半，如此靠近得我们却是不懂得如何与彼此沟通。

心一次又一次的浮现新疤痕。也一次又一次越来越深。我们到底怎么了。你到底怎么了。
我的眼泪已不止。

你的态度也不一了。当你回去的时候，我有的不舍。你却毫无感觉。当你对我说出那伤人的话，你也不再三思。我害怕的一天最终出现了。我在颤抖着。而你还是一样那么冷的对我说话。

到现在，眼泪总是不听使唤地划过，在咖啡店，在学校里，在家里，在厨房，在每一个角落。

你的不关心让我知道我不重要了。我不知道应该怎样。我的心还有你。我的灵魂已消失。

my love is here now just beside me.

You are coming today. I kinda worry about how you going to take flight and everything. Called you for so many times. Even i cannot concentrate on my exam these two days. It's really like a dream. Last night you just slept beside me. Felt so unreal till i couldn't sleep for whole night just wanna hold you tight. But you this pig has slept like dead because of jet lag. but still love you when you are beside me. Really appreciate that you are really come. I couldn't stop myself for laughing for whole day before you come really. I never been this happy before since i got here. I have hide my emotion for a long time till now when you are here and i can really look at you face by face, hug you and kiss you passionately.
Even though i still felt a bit shy yesterday when i met you first time after separated for 1 year and four months. Felt like a dream. Even i talked to you on the phone everyday for this one year but still i havent really hold you tight for 1 year. But luckily soon you help me to break my shyness barrier. I really love you. Now you are accompany me to library to study and sleeping just beside me. Love you soo much.you are so cute.:) muackss..

Thanks for everything

I really cannot do anything right now even i trying to control myself. But when the day you are going to be here in front of me just four days ahead. Gosh~~I really love you. Thanks for everything you have done for me. Thanks for everything..Really..I know you have changed a lots just for me. I really appreciate that. :) Love you.

Love,
Mei Lee

First post of our love

I have decided to record our story. We both came together so far. It's more than one year. I could never imagine that. Being an insecure person, i never really trust a long term relationship but still i try because i want it so much.

You always asked me am i still love you. Yes, i do. I really love you more than what you can imagine. But the insecurity that hides in my heart still there, i scare i will lost myself like before when i'm so in love you and you're gone one day. I went through the process. Now i felt like i want you so much that makes me so scare. I never told you and you will never know. I know you love me so much and you have changed a lots for me. You said you never hurt me. But i guess i need time. Just wanna to tell you at this moment you really means a lots to me. I want you to know how much I cherish you.

Both of us are so different, we don't have the same personality but i always makes myself believe that love is not finding the right person but together build a right relationship with our love. We have been separated from each other for more than one year. Our love story is so different yet so beautiful. Long distance relationship. No one can imagine how we do that. Our love become more and more strong even we don't see each other, we don't have close contact, we don't kiss each other, for more than one year. I really appreciate that you are always there listen to me and accompany me with the phone. Phone have become so important to both of us since i broke my laptop. I'm here in US all by myself if it's not you there listen to me, i would never came that far. You never know how was my feeling here fighting for my future all by myself. I'm glad i still doing great.

My baby, everyday i miss you so much everyday i just wanna talk to you. I know I'm tough girl but still how i wish i'm not that tough and lean on you all the time like how other girls do all the time when they are tired and in problem. I still wish i can hug you right now at this moment. I wish you were here with me as well. :) I can stand up by myself but i'm lost without you. Now is the period of time that is our challenge.Long distance relationships require a special willingness and understanding that can test love like no other type of relationship can. It requires constant communication and a desire to continually create your relationship, using only words. No matter what happens, we are always try so hard to works a way. We never want to end the love between us. The closer I am to you, the happier I am. But there is more fear inside me. I start to scare i will lost you one day.

My arms missed holding you. My eyes missed your smile. My ears missed the sound of your laugh. I missed the smell of your hair and the taste of your lips. I missed snuggling close to you. I missed looking at you when we are eating. I missed brushing back your hair, exposing your neck to loving and tender kisses. I missed staring into your beautiful small little eyes. I missed being held by you. I missed being near you. I missed you.

"And ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation." --Kahlil Gibran


Love,
Mei Lee